It’s hard being a newbie Christian

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Bri's Corner

In my previous post, I talked about how I grew up in a catholic home. I mentioned how difficult it was to make the transition to Christianity. Over the past few days since I started this blog, a thought has kept creeping up in my mind. “Being a newbie Christian is tough”. I began blogging with the intention of sharing my walk with Christ. I believe it is important to let others like me, know that they aren’t alone in freshly starting off their walk with Jesus. I say this because I know how terrifying it can seem when you look around at so many other Christians that have probably been in ministry for years. They seem so well put together. It’s intimidating and it can make one feel like we won’t ever know as much as them. But I’m here to tell anyone that might, or is currently experiencing…

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Dead Friendships

I don’t call people I never see friends. if we are friends why do we not talk? why is there no conversation? I call these people strangers. In times of absences people can change. Who your best friend was ten years ago is not who they could be today. People can change. Cherish the ones who love you and keep them close. I feel only strangers barely talk. The ones I call friends are the ones in my circle.

I hear this stuff about ohhh my best friend, we don’t have to talk for years and when we do it is like we never stopped talking. Sorry My thinking is. if we are best friends why have we not talked in years? with all the cell phones, and facebook and so many ways to keep in touch why are we not talking? anyways that is how my brain thinks.

I am not forcing any to be around me. If you don’t want to talk to me don’t, but don’t be mad when I don’t consider you my friend. I am really picky with who I let in, so if you want to stay around act like it. Or be gone. Just how I feel about it. i am not desperate for friends and truly don’t mind being alone with Jesus,. won’t be the first time in my life it has been that way, and could not be the last either. 2019 is the year i got rid of dead relationships and dead friendships. may they rest in peace!

Sorry I mean no offense but with the world being the way it is. I know I am rare and because of such I am very picky with who i let be my friend. So many fakes and phonies in the world. it is hard to find good quality people in today’s times. and if you let too many losers in your life. they will break you and be gone and then what?

I put a lot of work in to be a good person. and because I do. I want my work to be appreciated. So many people think good people are stepping stones or door matts or something to be taken advantage of. You do not see we choose to be this way. so when you find a good person VALUE THEM! I mean open your eyes dear people, how much of the world is good in today’s times?

Either way i don’t think I am better then any but seriously if you are out there and you are being different, you are being the lamb in the midst of wolves. be careful beloveds. people don’t have to love you. people don’t have to be nice to you. so when you find someone who is CHERISH THEM! For it is indeed a choice! I pray many get over the entitled thinking because honestly if even one person loves you THAT IS A BLESSING! AND TRUTH be told one should cling to their blessing. Not take it for granted,. Just my thinking. in it.

random thought* Sorry don’t mean to offend any just my thinking. Treat people how you want to be treated and when you see someone treating you well. APPRECIATE THEM! For in today’s times so many a holes. but how many good people? then we find the good ones and be a holes to them? Something is truly wrong with this!

You can hate me,, not like me, don’t have to be around me, but please don’t say we are friends and never talk to me! Sorry in my mind that just doesn’t fit right but to each their own. I pray this be the year many of us examine our lives and go through our friends with a fine tooth comb and just start examining our lives and the ones we call homies. just my advice. have a blessed day beloveds!

Broken women inspiration-My testimony!

I never understand the completeness of what I have been doing. I never considered anything I been doing. I just have been doing. There are not many woman pastors that move me. and honestly in today’s times not enough men anointed to turn my head. I am sorry I am beyond them ear tickling messages. You have to be deeply rooted in the Word for me to even listen. I am not saying this in a haughty way, but as much time as I spend with God you basically have to be connected with God and spew scriptures out your mouth to catch my interest. I know the WORD when I see it!

For many years when I was being hard headed or rebellious, God would use Joyce Meyers to bring me to tears. She was the only one I could hear, and not because I was looking but because somehow God would always make sure my T.V was left on accidentally and she would be speaking and my own laziness I wouldn’t change the channel or for whatever reason. I never sought out Joyce Meyers. it is just how it went down.

I was raped more then once in my life. I was molested. I lost everything I owned. More then once. Luck wasn’t on my side. I wanted no part of God. What kind of God would allow all this stuff to happen to me? I am cursed. I am doomed. God does not love me. I would pray to God then I would wipe away my tears. God would not talk to someone like me, who am I kidding.

I would slap myself in the face, Not really but I would talk reason to myself. Girl stop talking crazy. God doesn’t love us. it is just me and you and that is all we got. Stop all that non sense. I use to talk to myself like that. Then all of a sudden as I was putting my make up on to get ready. here comes Joyce Meyers. Telling me God loves me. Telling me to read my bible. She said she was raped. or molested or both, what? Now you got my attention. How can anyone who had those things happen smile and say God loves you?

I cried. I confess I didn’t become a Joyce Meyers follower. I said to myself Michelle get over it that lady is just an actress she is getting paid to say that stuff. I would smile and say I love God if people paid me too. I would turn the T.V. off. but too late a small seed was planted. her words would eat my conscience for days.

I have come to understand I am the new generation Joyce Meyers. I am the one that has been telling people. hey we got to read the bible. I am the one that has been standing up confessing my sins and the things I did and they way God healed me. it breaks my heart to see so many call Joyce Meyers false and for those who don’t know, go into the religious crowd and they drag her name down in dirt. Well I am not Joyce and many have done the same thing to me.

I wrote people should pray, read your Word, and here came all those religious folks and they called me false. and the called me a devil too, but they don’t even know me. I would say so the devil tells people to read the bible? The devil tells people to pray and seek God’s face? the devil tells people to repent? to live Godly? No matter what you say these ugly religious people came to spew hate and honestly I was so naive back then. Even though I saw they called Jesus a devil I just thought that they would see I was not a devil.

After all I was not doing what Jesus did, so I thought to myself no way on earth they would call me evil or false. Boy was I wrong. I thank God for everything that has happened to me in the last decade. Some how some way in my own style I am going to be like Joyce Meyers because anyone who tells me to read my Word. I call them people angels and since they called Jesus a devil. I would rather be a devil who points people to Jesus, then be like those who say they are saved and call innocent people they never even met devils.

I am also so thankful God gave me a talent so I would not have to sit and follow people and worry about who is false and who is not. I always think to myself if those who pointed fingers put the mirror in front of self maybe they would have a following, following them instead of them going after people who preach the Word they would be one of the ones who preached too!

Either way I have a heart for the people on drugs, the people in gangs, the molested, the raped, the wounded, the sinners, Because I WAS ONE OF YOU! and I pray I can lead a mighty nation of people like the former me to God and I will let people call me any name they want for the ones who hear I will be called an angel and that is truth and for them I will take a beating like I have been and do IT WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE!

Sorry dear people I thank God for my life because of everything that happened I able to stand and be a lion and a lamb at the same time and I will be both for GOD! God I thank you for today. I thank you for the past. I thank you for my life. I pray every single ounce of my life, the good, the bad, the ugly, the sorrow, the sweet joy, Use every single ounce of my life for your glory GOD, for the numbers of your Kingdom. to save many in this generation. use everything in my life for you GOD and it will be done! it all ready has been happening and I am so thankful God is able to use my life and give it a purpose otherwise it would of been in vain and if I knew God was going to use all that hurting and suffering to save others I wouldn’t of complained, because God does know I love people so much I would take a beating for my friends if it saved their life and that is truth of who I am and God does know it man!

I pray my heart be so transparent many people get saved in Jesus name Amen! Also my time for dying for others is over. I died my whole life so I can now live and sing praises to GOD! and that is truth beloveds! Either way I pray everyone have a happy new year and truth be told this is the year I will walk in newness with the LORD! ❤ So many new things are coming and I am just thanking GOD in advance! ❤

Be safe and consider! happy New year!

So almost every new year I write the same thing and this year won’t be different. If you must drink tonight be wise. have your ride all ready lined up. have your cab money in your sock so you don’t spend it. if you don’t have a ride stay home and drink dear people. You know just imagine. You can go out drinking and wake up in a jail cell. Have no memory at all. wonder what is going on. Then the next thing an officer goes by. You yell out hey. hey why am I here? The officer looks at you with hate and says you sir are a murderer, what’s a matter don’t remember?

I hear so many say I am fine I can drive and you only think about yourself. What happens if you hit that car with a lady driving who has six kids and you run into her and kill all her kids? or even worst the mom dies and the kids live. People should think about this stuff before they go drinking. because if you are going to continue to be a drinker at least be wise about it. You getting in a accident and dying is not the only thing that can happen. You could be a murderer.

How would that feel? I mean if we drink in drive that technically could happen so might as well start preparing. Please be wise this holiday. be safe and I love you guys! Happy New Year!

I myself will not be drinking or acting a fool and honestly i do pray people get tired of partying. I pray God help many see there is more to life then parties. Would be nice to see people write extensive goals. Not resolutions. goals get done. resolutions don’t. I pray God gift many with wisdom this year and strength to start something new in their world, in Jesus name Amen! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

A perfect person

I sought a perfect person, I sought a perfect religion. I sought a perfect tradition. I sought a perfect friend, a perfect relation, a perfect life and all the was vexation to my soul. it was also vanity. Who am I that I should overcome or be over any hard ship in life? Who am I that I should have a life without problems? a life with only joy? what man’s life has been perfected from beginning to end? is such a person alive in earth today?

I know not, but I know I did search many places all over. I sat with the rich. I sat with the poor. I sat with the educated, the simple, many colors, many people and all I saw was people. I looked up to the sky I spoke to God. the only perfection I know is Jesus. I love the Word but is the Word perfected?

They argue languages, they argue wisdom, they say let us look at facts. and so much knowledge, many over look the simple. never understanding something greater then people made people. Do any ever consider the stars, the moon and the skies? we say we are gods, but yet in my brain, I am like why are we not making the things God made?

I am not a perfect person. I am in the middle of creating art, and music and trying to do a million things, and if I was God they would all be done at once. and lately I have been exercising and that has been exhausting me. This was a random note I wrote in this.

Please don’t look upon me thinking I am perfect. I only know God is perfect. I believe Jesus to be perfect. and that is what I believe but I don’t know what others think or do or know but honestly my eyes are going to stay on what I believe is perfection.

Dear God. help me better then I am today. help me be better then I was yesterday. To make good decisions, help me not make excuses but give me super natural strength to be good. to be different. help me do things pleasing to you God. have your way in my life. Plant my feet deeply in you GOD and let me not slip or fall or be cast away but help me walk in Jesus name Amen!

Entitled Generation

These words might not be the most popular but I do pray they populate the earth in Jesus name Amen! People don’t owe you anything. But you do owe your self enough to look with in your self and better your self. Just what I believe. have a blessed super natural day in JESUS! ❤ Sorry dear people I am going to be like my parents and speak in love because I CHOOSE to love you! and no hatred or bad words is going to change my love for you! and Jesus loves you too! ❤ God's love is greater then mine! and I am a 100% believer of is to love is to speak LIFE!  I never had a friend, I called a friend that wanted me to die. I don't call those people friends beloved. But who knows maybe perhaps I am the only one who feels this way, Am I different? You tell me?

Prepare your hearts! The unmarried!

This verse was one God put on my heart about 7 years ago. an unmarried woman saves her self to be holy for the LORD. I did not know I was doing these things God spoke to me I was and it was so deep and honestly I am so thankful! In my singleness I happily looked to God, for the relationships I had were not good. Now I truly don’t care if I ever get married and that is truth. Happy to be married to Jesus! Either way to the UNMARRIED I pray this be the season you work our your holiness! and to the married I pray God strengthen your marriage. For both positions have a purpose and neither is greater then the other. Some are called to be wives and husbands and before then, all of us are unmarried there forth at sometime all of us should be working out holiness my friends!

32 I want you to be free from concerns. An unmarried man is concerned about the things of the Lord, that is, about how he can please the Lord. 33 But a married man is concerned about things of this world, that is, about how he can please his wife, 34 and so his attention is divided.

An unmarried woman or virgin is concerned about the affairs of the Lord, so that she may be holy in body and spirit. But a married woman is concerned about the affairs of this world, that is, about how she can please her husband. 35 I’m saying this for your benefit, not to put a noose around your necks, but to promote good order and unhindered devotion to the Lord.
1 Corinthians 7:32-35