Wash me clean

Dear God. I am a sinner. I pray for your forgiveness. Though my sins be many. I can not number them. They are red like a river flowing with blood. My days are filled with iniquity. My heart is troubled. I am saddened. I can not stand on my own feet. I need your Holy Spirit to guide me. To lift me up. I am lower then dirt. I sunk in the mud, I turned to dirt, then sand, and ashes, I am scattered all over. I am broken God. I have no strength to rise up. I need your strength I need your Comforter God.

In the morning I shall rise! I shall sing! I shall give the Lord my praises! I will smile and say Thank you God for a new day and a new opportunity to bless you, Lord. Write your Word in my heart. let me keep it hidden! I will seek you in my hidden chambers where no man on earth can see me, and even if they catch me I will not apologize. I will say thank you God! I am so thankful I am alive and able to give you praises. On my knees I crawled. it was dark. I was alone. My thoughts were twisted. notice the past tense with the dark thoughts!

My heart was hardened, filled with sorrow. I hated the day I was born. I cursed it! I despised it. Why God? why? I sunk to the ground. I fell face forward. Who am I God that you should hear my words? I cried. I know God would not hear me. Why would God hear a nobody like me? I cried harder. I was so tired. exhausted. I fell to the floor. I was wounded. Nobody on earth could save me.

What is that? Who spoke to me? What does that mean? I am the one who gives life? What is life? This is not life. this is death. I am cursed. Everything I touch is cursed. Everything I do shatters.
Arise you say? I can’t.

I am fallen down, what would be the purpose of standing? I will teach you things! Yeah sure you will. I laughed. I mocked God. I must be crazy.

I keep hearing a voice. it is helping me. it is giving me life. it is speaking things that come to pass. What? is God helping me? is God hearing me? No! I must be crazy. No way in earth God would hear me.

Man I tell you the second paragraph is how I feel now The others are how I felt years ago. I do not doubt God anymore! THANK GOD! I seen God too many years in my life to doubt anymore. and since then I have read my Word and I tell you when I say I heard the Word before I read it, and I wrote it before I read it. and honestly, Thank God for that because God took away all doubt. God wants us to live dear people and it is true! sin causes death.

Everything dies in earth only our souls live. and honestly this I know if people really saw hell. if you really knew what hell was nobody, not one single person on earth would pick hell and not even for billions of dollars. the ones who do they don’t know what hell is and that is is truth! because nobody can even withstand hell on earth and if we can not stand through the suffering of our own sin and the sins of others, my God. How does any think they can handle hell? my friends, I do not know, but I tell you the reason I speak of hell is because I believe.

I seen God. I seen good. I seen evil. I seen what sin does on this planet and after and we do not want any part of death. I pray many find Jesus, that ways our souls will rest with JESUS! P.S. Jesus did die for us to cover that river of sins, I SPOKE OF IN THE BEGINNING. One Blood takes away our blood (the blood of our sins) and that is truth. I pray many of us get washed in the river. confess your sins run deep and Know God forgives us and washes us clean! and to be clean is to be new AND THAT IS WONDERFUL GOOD NEWS!

The former thoughts have passed away, and all I can do is worship God and truth be told there is no place I would rather be. and since I been many places, this I AM CERTAIN! ❤ all thanks and praises to JESUS! I pray many of us dirty people get washed clean. it truly is a blessed thing. This is why I speak of it continuously, because I truly do believe it is the best thing in planet earth to be renewed and remade by GOD! and I am thankful to be alive to speak this WONDERFUL GOOD NEWS! the GOOD NEWS of God! better then any riches and given for free by sitting at the LORD’s feet! Man that truly does make you feel like dancing! *High fives David!* Indeed God turns your weeping into dancing! let us dance with GOD!

This post is only written so people like the former me be washed clean! Shalom dear people! and I love you guys and my love is nothing compared to the love of God! I can’t even explain God’s love man! it is beyond my understanding! ❤

This post was inspired by Jesus, my life and the Book of Isaiah!

Who am I?

This is a true story. One time I was at a church and this woman fell down to her feet and said you are God. I will confess. I thought it kind of embarrassing. She did it in front of the whole church. I said woman rise up what are you doing? I am not God. She said ok, ok You are an angel then i don’t care what anyone says by this woman’s prayers my family member was healed. I said if that is true then let us praise God and I helped her up.

This was not a blessing I thought. For after that my goodness there was so much jealously in the church. People starting gossiping and talking about me. Needless to say I fled that church. and now that time has pass this is what I wish I had did. I wish I had said woman I am not God and honestly if God heard my prayers and your family member is saved. Oh my goodness. Move over let me get on my knees, NO LET ME FALL FACE FORWARD! God who I am that you would answer my prayers? Who am I that someone should bow to me? let’s thank God together! THANK GOD THAT GOD IS ABLE TO USE SOMEONE LIKE ME! Thank you GOD for hearing prayers! God I don’t understand. I would never use someone like me. I am lower then dirt. Who am I that people should bow to me? Don’t be greedy move over let me get on my knees and thank God with you!

Thank you God for being able to cleanse wretched people. To be able to lift them up. God I fully confess I do thank you for words of encouragement and people you send to up lift me but if I not give you thanks with them, Who am I that you should hear my prayers?

God is so Holy. God’s love is something until this day I can’t comprehend. I would not use me. I would of left me. I would of walked away. I would of gave up on myself but some reason God never gave up on me! My God if people even knew the meaning of this they would fall on their knees like me! and with me. Man if God can have people calling someone like me an angel, a prophet an apostle, I mean I have been called every religious name under the sun and my God before I used to be called every cuss word in the book. WOW! If I didn’t see it with my own eyes and live it I honestly would not believe it!

20 years ago if anyone told me I would be used by God. if you would of spoke even one thing I seen in the last decade about my life. I would died laughing. Seriously. Thank you God for not ever having anyone prophecy over my life. God told me a long time God would use me. Man I seen it AND STILL DON’T BELIEVE!!

Sorry dear people. this letter was only written to give God thanks and that is truth man! IF PEOPLE ONLY KNEW!

I pray many seek God wholly because honestly if you knew the full story of this you would be instantly converted. and I do believe that to be truth. people are dirty. we are incomplete without God and God did not come to break us, but make us whole. Those who are not sick are truly in no need of a physician!

Sin is the cause. Jesus is the cure! Follow Jesus! Stay blessed dear people! With arms wide ope,n flat on the floor, open mouth, a surrendered heart! Here I am GOD! I am yours use me! I once was wounded. NOW I AM HEALED! I was was fallen Now I stand! I was was tossed in shaky land now my feet are firmly planted.

I am singing a new tune! THANK YOU JESUS! ❤

Who am I? who are you? are you who I was? You can be me too! God we are unworthy who are we that you should cleanse us up. We are sinners God! help us lift up our countenances to you LORD! For your glory, honor, zeal, will and joy be filled! WE LOVE YOU GOD! #GoTeamJESUS!

Being Born Again

Being born again is a new birth. it is a new mind set. it can not be faked. it is not an act or show for people. The evidence will be in your life. and not to talk bad about the Holy Ghost as some teach it but to speak gibberish without a new birth is exactly what it is. and I also do not mean by putting on a skirt, and a head covering or any outwardly appearance. not to say these things won’t come for God has a way of convicting us if God wants our dressing to change God will speak it to people.

But so many putting on skirts. Hiking up their noses and looking down on people and saying to them self and even others, thank God I am saved they say! but there is not change. There is no converts. Nobody is believing because people have eyes to see. You can’t fake God. Those who sit with God, God changes my friends. This is facts and evidence of it all around.

The Holy Spirit produces fruit. and I do not mean big crowds. I mean it produces fruit. You can see the tree growing. God changes our hearts and as our hearts are changed then yes God does call many of us to change our dressing but the purpose of this letter is We are in the season God is separating the real from the fake. and the evidence will be in our deeds, in our speech, in our thoughts and we will truly be transformed. Old things become A NEW! NOT REMAIN THE SAME!

You can not fake a rebirth from God my friends. I apologize it is impossible. but you can go to many churches and see a circus if you want to. and not to mock churches, many churches are of God but others put on shows, and others follow. For they are blinded by material things. They all want gifts without repenting. Blessings when they are cursed in sin. and because of such the god they created is the god they receive but these gods are not GOD, nor are they JESUS! For if it was you wouldn’t have to seek with cash and shows my friends the evidence would stand in you and that is truth beloveds.

Either way I pray this be the year many get reborn and I do not mean a year in men’s terms but God’s I pray God lead many to salvation, to true repentance, to a real rebirth. I pray God rebirth GOD’s people my friends. Who is that they said? ANY WHO WILL LISTEN! In Jesus name Amen!

Also new tongue will be given. You will speak scriptures. when you use to cuss you will not any longer. before you use to speak about partying drinking and all things stinking. When GOD comes into your life YOUR SPEECH CHANGES! as do all your old habits! A NEW BIRTH! and truly no man will see GOD without being born again dear people!

I pray GOD breathe a new spirit into people and may we BE BORN AGAIN, in Jesus name Amen! Create us into something new God. Fashion us into you. Change our hearts, change our minds, change the patterns we are in. Cleanse our hearts, cleanse our minds, our souls and our spirits. Help us be set free from our sin, free from our temptations. Deliver us God for indeed we are in a a land of evil and only YOU CAN SAVE US! Deliver us! have mercy on us! We are sinners who need your strength! Shine your Light in the dark GOD take off our blinders so we can see your face in Jesus name Amen!

Bless the Reader

Dear God I pray bless every reader that comes to this post. Bless their houses, bless their minds, bless their hearts, minds, souls and spirits. God if anyone out there is suffering addictions if they are ill, if they are homeless, if they suffer sadness. if they are contemplating ending their life. if they have no job, no hope, no anything God I believe you can make a valley of dead bones live. I know that pretty much everything I listed, I once suffered from and God healed me my friends, and I believe if God can do it for me God can do it for any willing.

I confess I had to humble myself. I had to break down. Oceans of tears I cried, on my knees to God. I cried out to God. I searched for God. I sat with God and God healed me my friends. it is like the scriptures said. but then I can see I am humble. And perhaps that is why my prayers were heard. I pray God bless us all with a humble spirit because honestly, I speak of God for many reasons. One is because I know what will come if we do not repent. But more so then that. I found a healing I never had.

I searched the whole world looking for happiness. I searched it in jobs, I searched in men. I searched for it family, in friends, in drugs, in gambling in doing things many do today, and the list goes on. hardly anyone knows these things for this is who I was. I had a void that nothing could fill. I was always looking for something but killing myself. I seen hell in earth and my friends I want no part of the real hell for I seen that also. I believe I saw heaven. I saw the future, I saw the past.

I care not who believes me because honestly, the only reason I speak is praying many find this healing. This healing only came when I sat with God. When I spoke to God. When I told God I was sorry. Either way I truly deeply pray God bless the reader who comes to this post.

Sin is sin and honestly, I can’t talk about any sins. I only know God delivers you. You can not keep on lying and say you don’t lie my friends. You are a thief as long as you steal. Once you quit do you still say I am a thief? Just something to consider. I truly pray for many because when I was weak I couldn’t pray for myself even now so much easier for me to pray for others. So if you are struggling with sin, with addictions with loneliness. I am praying for your complete recovery. Sorry although I do type a great portion of prayers in public I do the majority of my praying in the closet.

So please believe and know there are real people who love you in the world. and I honestly believe I am one of them. I can pray for people until I am blue but honestly, it comes a time we have to pray for ourself. and one of the first steps in praying is saying, God, I confess I am a sinner. then pray for strength to walk away from sin.

You could try and cleanse yourself up. but honestly, I would sit with God and ask God to dress you. Start reading your Word. Get to a bible preaching church it helps. pray on your own. just start taking away the world and replacing it with God. Just my advice. written for growth. have a blessed day dear people! Follow Jesus! I mean seriously sit at His feet and listen! Matthew Chapter 5 is real!