A Dream

I once had a dream, which I don’t dream often and most of the time when I do my dreams come true.  In this dream God spoke to me I had a name that I knew not. The name was Ariana. I wrote the dream out in great detail. I never claimed this dream to be of God, but in reality all things God spoke to me in the dream were true, but I never was bold enough to say I believed it. for I get tired trying to argue with people. When I woke up from the dream. I found all things God spoke to me were true and when I looked up the meaning to the name God gave me. it gave me goosebumps. I had forgotten all about this dream until yesterday. I was in a conversation and asked if I knew the meaning of my name. I said no. but honestly that was not exactly true. I looked my name up shortly after I had that dream. anyways This is just a random thought I been thinking about.


For in the dream God gave me that name. I was shown the past, and I believe I saw the beginning of time. I don’t really speak on it anymore. But the name God gave to me the meaning was very holy, or holy one. That lead me to do a study on my own name, and my name I was given at birth even has  mighty meaning to it. My last name means God’s last will.  My first name means, God like. which is also a female version of Michael who was God’s Angel, and my middle name is the female version of John, who was the baptist. which means God is gracious. I always thought that was crazy, because honestly my life is all about God. Was that an accident I got named these things? Was it on purpose? well both my Mom and Dad both claim my name was just pure coincidence, they neither gave thought nor care on the meanings. They just loved the names. Anyways just an interesting comment I blog on.


Sorry my friends this was not a post to exalt Michelle. for I have such a lowly opinion of my self and I don’t think I am holy at all, who is holy but God?  I know holiness is where my eyes are set and perfection if that be possible but I do know I am just Michelle. So there was no purpose to this. was just voicing my thoughts down on pen and paper.


But honestly maybe I am something I don’t know because honestly strangers call me many odd names. I know I have been called God. people have tried to bow to my feet. I immediately make them rise. I been called every religious name under the sun, but I also been called many evil names especially by religious people!  Now that is funny. I think anyways. People can label me what they want, as far as I know I am just Michelle. but somehow someway something about that conversation has been lingering with me.  even has me looking at my life.


Well in the Word it says let the lips of strangers praise you, and if your doing deeds, yeah sure some  might hate you (seems to be the ones who watch others praise you) but it seems the ones receiving your help label you something different, and to me it is their words that matter.  To the ones who did not follow Jesus they had all types of names to call him. but to the ones Jesus sat with and healed they called Jesus a savior! I also believe that is why Jesus told people not to tell anyone He helped them.


Do your deeds in dark, not for the favor of others to witness. Do them for you and God and then you will receive your reward. for doing deeds to be seen it not necessarily doing them for God. Sometimes men do such things for their own pride and ego and for them to be exalted as a hero. if I was a billionaire I would help so many people and honestly I would contribute anonymously.  Nobody but me, God, and the one who received my help would know. That is who I am my friends. Just a random thought. there was no purpose in this at all. Have a blessed day dear people

Under the weather.

I have not been feeling the best the last few days. I am a little under the weather. The weather is changing constantly and I am trying not to complain. I have not been sick for a few years and it finally caught me.  I am way behind in the things I am doing. but I did write a few post today I pray they be a blessing to someone out there in their times of struggle and sorrow and it be a great light for you and draw you to truth.  God bless everyone who God brings to my page even if it is one. You are great in God’s eyes.  and I am going to rejoice with God when God heals you and delivers you my friend! Luke 15:1-7, Matthew 18:12–14. Check these post out I wrote today. SuicideWhat you sway your hips tooBrokenProverbs 31 Woman. I pray these messages bless many!  Be blessed dear people!


I use to think about death. I use to long for it. I thank God, God delivered me from that stuff. See while you are thinking about death, might as well think about all of it.  What if you pull the trigger and live? what if you jump and survive?  So instead of a life that sucks, you now have a worse life to live. only this time you can’t end your life for you have no arms and legs. you sit in a chair. You use to walk. now you have no choice but to live.


You pull the trigger. you live. only now you’re a little slower and unable to grasp complete sentences. This is how you will live out your lives friends. Either way I have my own little story I tell people of when they want to go take them self out. I mean not to be hurtful but as a women who really tried to kill herself. trust me when I say a person who really wants to will, and they won’t tell a soul for they do not want to be caught. Most of the time I think those who claim suicide just really seeking attention and sorry, as a woman who had these thoughts and acted on them. I think I have a right to think these things.


There is a lot worst things that can happen my friends then thinking about suicide. I pray God heal the minds of those who want to take their own lives. I know God can heal you for God delivered me from that stuff. I leave you with some real words to consider. First off go look up the guy that jumped off the golden gate bridge. (the survivor stories-you can find them on youtube if you want or google it)  Most who jumped off by the time they jumped down wished they had never jumped.


I have told people of a failed attempt, I went through and I planned it perfect. I planned it so perfect nobody came and checked on me. Nobody found me or stopped me and if God had not intervened I would of been dead and honestly it is many years later and I can honestly say, I thank God for not allowing me to take my life. So many memories I got to have that I would not of. Not to mention I never knew my life could or would change, and honestly if I had seen a vision of my older years I would of gladly embraced my younger years. and that is truth my friends. I will not at this time tell my suicide story and honestly I may not speak it ever again. But to the ones who want to, first and foremost if your mind is truly made up nobody’s words in the world will change your mind.


But for those who just think that is a better ending to life, what if you fail? what if you create a worse  problem then what you are living in now? Seriously to those who hate their life. Look around always some one worst then you. You were raped? many were raped. You are poor? many are poor. look into some third world countries.  Your Mom hates you? My friends parents abandoned their kids all the time.  Life is not perfect and honestly it truly is, if you hate your life perhaps it is time to sit down with a paper and pen and start making some changes.


Pity parties don’t solve anything. if you are feeling down listen to others with worst problems then you. Might make you celebrate your life.  Today might not look good but tomorrow can be different especially if you start making some changes. Just some advice from a woman who has been down that road before.  if you can spend hours thinking negative thoughts you can indeed spend some time thinking about making change. With all the youtube and videos and places you can examine things again start looking at people with problems worst then you. or listen to testimony of people who been through what you have and now are overcome. Just some advice i give to people. seriously life is hard and if you give up now you will never get to see the rewards.


There are good things to live through and if you quit now you will never get to find that out.  Just words to consider. I pray God bless the reader and if you are filled with depression, sorrow and suicide that Almighty God help you over come, in Jesus name Amen! Sorry my friends if God did it for me I believe God can do it for any willing. Just my testimony! Also drugs and alcohol are not a cure for depression it actually makes the problem worst. so if this is you, I pray you get help. Go to AA or get to a church because honestly adding drugs and alcohol to depression is just putting gasoline on a forest fire.


it is hard to get a better life when your drowning your sorrow in booze and drugs my friends. I am just keeping it real.  Love you guys and I pray many with suicidal thoughts get some help and God help you establish a life that it not filled with sorrow but joy. My prayers. God be with us and help a new generation of people rise up and overcome the lie the devil has laid down for them. in Jesus name Amen! Psalm 30:5, Psalm 30:11, the whole Psalm is a lovely read, and in my darkest hour God lead me to Psalm 31 and that is when a new day was for me and I am so thankful God did not leave me forgotten. although I was a broken dead vessel my friends and now God gave me a new tune!  THANK YOU JESUS! Also maybe perhaps my last three post about changing music may be a help to you. or at lease words to consider! Shalom dear people!

What you sway your hips too

Good old fashion rock music? Oh lets turn up (<-apparently a younger generation phrase that means, do drugs or drink) and sing songs about drinking, about doing drugs. lets sing these songs while we do our drugs? Cheers is this not fun? Ohhh I wish I had a man. I will listen to all these sad depressing songs telling me how I need a man, then wonder why I feel so alone. I will sing all these songs filled with hate and walk around wondering why I want to murder someone.

We become what we put into us. Music is a good source to get closer to God. Sing a bunch of songs about drugs and being lonely and a lonely booze drinker we will become. They did studies years ago about how music could influence people. Seems to be true. I would not go back to any other music! Glad to be delivered from the worldly stuff I use to put in me! Was a weight taken off of me when I changed what I put in me. I use to write many articles about such things. I have not for awhile so maybe it is time again.

Do not be surprised if the music you are listening to makes you act a certain way. Years ago they did studies on music. So these are not my thoughts but 100% proven in the past, and if any one wants to perhaps they can go find the facts. You know it is said Lucifer was the king of music, and his chest there are pipes and he sang a sweet tune as all the people followed him off to hell. They all swayed their hips and just followed away and they never saw the ditch they fell in for they were too busy swaying their hips to even notice that the music they listened to kept them in bondage. kept them hurting. kept them lying down in their sin. hurting over and over again.

The devil is real my friends. and God is Life and we have to come to understanding the devil is opposite of God and does oppose God. There is no love in the devil my friends. only death and hate, and sweet words that will keep you doing whatever you are doing, so that way you can keep on drinking, keep on dancing and be taken with the flood or fall into the pit and this is death my friends.

Many do not want to believe in God but the more you believe the more you see and the spiritual battle is real. When you come to find the devil only wants to devour us. then perhaps you’ll see why we need to be born again. it becomes real obvious to us. the devil is not our friend. and neither is his temporal gifts.

You drink to much and see how far that gets you. you keep sleeping around with people and see how your life goes my friend. I wrote many articles in the past about why we do not sin but honestly it is not a message a lot want to hear. They do hear it. it just is not received instantly. I have learned that now through out my years teaching it. I pray many people start to consider their actions. You may be able to lie about some things but once you hear the truth it becomes real easy to see the devil just wants us to die friends. and somehow over the years me saying things for LIFE have had many call me the devil. But my friends the devil is not coming against the devil. he is singing songs tell people to turn up, to be lonely and miserable break God’s laws, fornicate and then wonder why we are not happy. he tells us to drink and calls it fun but why are so many drinking to escape a life the devil did create. It is time for us to wake up my friends.

To understand God is LIFE unto us. I am so thankful God changed my music. changed my life, changed my heart. I did have to start hanging out with God and honestly it was the best thing I ever could of done!!! I have a peace and joy many on this planet do not have. I once did not have it either. The battle is real. you’re either hot, cold or being walked on because standing still is the worst option. I pray many find God, for honestly what is a friend who says slit your wrist? do drugs? get addicted? just die, because that is the new words for friendly? Seems to be true in the generation where many are calling good evil, and evil good. woe unto these people my friends. Matthew 6:22-23

Written so many consider. have a Wonderful day dear people!


Broken seemed to be a way of life for me. I got the long suffering part of the fruit of the Spirit. Easy to praise God when I am broken. Been broken so long when I was standing I did not praise God. I now know God allowed all these things because He was setting me up for my future to come. God did not want me to lose my soul. If I was born rich or became rich I fully confess in my younger years i probably would of spoiled the money away or even worst self indulged and I always use to say God kept me broke so I can live.

A Lot of things been happening in my life and I can see the things God spoke to me many years ago. I could not see before but I see it now. I just am thankful that God put me in a place where I will praise the Lord continuously. if I become super rich I will praise the Lord. if I become super poor I will praise the Lord. If I lose everything I will still praise the Lord. If I am placed on top I will still honor and praise the Lord. Really thankful to be at a point in my life I can do this.

The road was hard. the journey was rough. The storms almost killed me but somehow through it God built me in the finest material. The Lord was shaping me and honestly I am happy to be able to see it! I could not see it many years ago. I walked in faith. I had to for if I went by the things I seen I never would of made it this far!

It’s a lot people putting on shows for many people. it is many who say they are Christians. I pray they do not be tossed in the fire for lying but I also pray for those who are luke warm, or even the broken. I pray God help a great multitude of people grow in God and be doers of the Word.

God made man out of the dust of the ground. So if God can make a whole man out of dust, God can create wicked men into beautiful creation my friends. This is who God still is today. I pray God find many of you and build you up into something beautiful! have a blessed wonderful day dear people! Just a random thought. Shalom!